Chapter 17

I am so close to finishing chapter 17... but it's too late and i'm too tired to keep going... Hopefully I will finish and post tomorrow... I hope... I hate that it's been over a week.  It definitely hasn't been for lack of trying. 

Chapter 17

I have come to the conclusion that I will never be able to post two chapters in a week.  So, I need to quit saying I will... I just get too excited after a post and I want to write more...but then real life gets in the way and I can't do it...  Sorry...  here's something yummy to look at ...

MoH chapter 16

Man of Honor Chapter 16 is posted and I hope to have 17 up by Wednesday.  I have been on a roll lately and I hope it keeps happening. 

I have a few other things going too and I think that's helping to keep me from getting frustrated... or so I hope! 

chapter 16

I just put a serious dent in chapter 16 and I decided to stop at the lemon.  I don't think the soccer field is the best place to some up with it.  But, I will be home in a little bit and once the kiddos are in bed I hope to finish up the chapter and get it posted tonight.  That's the plan anyway... we will see what happens when I get there. 

I have quite a few other stories going right now as well.  I started and emo-ward story that has Bella leaving him.  I'm three chapters in and really like where it's heading.  I have long-lost love Ed/Bella story that's going well.  And then I have a dick-ward story that is totally different than anything I have ever written.    And those are ust the ones that I'm actively workng on. 

It is definitely helping me to keep motivated. 

Speaking of motivation...

Chapter 15 MoH

I posted chapter 15 last night.  I had to take a major change in direction to get it written.  It's going to be  a better story, now. 

Chapter 16 shouldn't be too difficult.  I am motivated to write it, I just need to find the time. 

I have several other stories started.  I am two-three chapters deep in most of them and have ideas for more. 

The writing is coming easier... I just have a lack of desire to write and am waaaayyyyy to easily distracted.

See...

just in case you're curious...

I'm struggling... in just about everything.  If it wasn't for my understanding husband, I would probably have lost it by now. 

Something isn't right with me.  I have little to no desire to do anything but eat and sleep.  I'm finally at the point where I don't feel like I'm losing my mind, but I'm still not motivated to do much.  Because I have been in such a funk I haven't wanted to write either... which sucks  because writing has become such an outlet for me. 

I am trying, but it's like getting blood out of a turnip.  I get a sentence here or there or maybe a thought or two, but it fades quickly and then I end up frustrated. 

I have made an appointment with a Doctor and will be having some tests done, but that's not until October.  So, I'm just trying to make it through... one hour at a time... one day at a time... one week at a time...  and that's all that I can do.

Just know that I am trying to write and I hate that I am leaving people hanging...

lack of motivation...

Right now I'm struggling to the point where I have made a Dr's appt to see what's going on with me.  I'm writing little bits at a time, but it doesn't feel like I'm getting anywhere... maybe the story needs some drama to make me want to write... who knows... I will post when I get it done.